10.20.2008
Waiting on enlightenment to happen
Yet another day is drawing to a close, another day at the end of classes that is, not the end of work. I guess the adage, a student's work is never done would apply in this instance. I'm at the point where I'm living one assignment to the next. Somewhere in the oblivion of things, teachers have miraculously forgotten what it is like to have more than one class. There's always that teacher who decides that their homework is more important, I don't know what to say about that.
Today we had a writing exercise in class, and I thought my hand was going to fall off, really, it was kind of pathetic. I was almost mad at myself, at how much I've allowed my hands to deteriorate, it's one thing to hit letters on a keyboard, but it is something entirely different to hold a pen and move it in purposeful patterns to form letters.
Now I'm waiting for that spark to happen, for my enlightenment to come and light up the nooks of my clouded brain that house the information needed to write my paper for tonight. Somehow though I know that the only way for enlightenment to happen, I need only to sit and write and it will come to me... eventually--because it takes work to progress work.
I just came back from a weekend at home. I finally told my parents that I am planning on moving to Oregon when I finish school, and that I have already started looking at Grad schools there. I've come to the conclusion that there are things I want to do, and if I have the means to do them, I will. I don't want to look back on my life and wish I had done the things that I wanted to do, I didn't visit the places I wanted to visit.
Over the summer I concocted a list of some of the places I wanted to visit. It started getting too long, so I decided to list the places I didn't want to go, there weren't many.
Today, I mentally began writing a list of the things I would like to do.
1.Graduate with Bachelors of Science
2.Move to Oregon
3.Get M.F.A. in Creative Writing
4.Travel to Europe and Asia
5.Fall in love
6.Go to Canada
7.Go to Disney for the first time
8.Write a book, and get it published
9.Marry the man I fall in love with
10.Take a pottery class with my mom
11.Try my hand at decorating cakes
Today we had a writing exercise in class, and I thought my hand was going to fall off, really, it was kind of pathetic. I was almost mad at myself, at how much I've allowed my hands to deteriorate, it's one thing to hit letters on a keyboard, but it is something entirely different to hold a pen and move it in purposeful patterns to form letters.
Now I'm waiting for that spark to happen, for my enlightenment to come and light up the nooks of my clouded brain that house the information needed to write my paper for tonight. Somehow though I know that the only way for enlightenment to happen, I need only to sit and write and it will come to me... eventually--because it takes work to progress work.
I just came back from a weekend at home. I finally told my parents that I am planning on moving to Oregon when I finish school, and that I have already started looking at Grad schools there. I've come to the conclusion that there are things I want to do, and if I have the means to do them, I will. I don't want to look back on my life and wish I had done the things that I wanted to do, I didn't visit the places I wanted to visit.
Over the summer I concocted a list of some of the places I wanted to visit. It started getting too long, so I decided to list the places I didn't want to go, there weren't many.
Today, I mentally began writing a list of the things I would like to do.
1.Graduate with Bachelors of Science
2.Move to Oregon
3.Get M.F.A. in Creative Writing
4.Travel to Europe and Asia
5.Fall in love
6.Go to Canada
7.Go to Disney for the first time
8.Write a book, and get it published
9.Marry the man I fall in love with
10.Take a pottery class with my mom
11.Try my hand at decorating cakes
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